I guess the world of blogging isn't really new to me, as I've had a blog since 2001 but... it was time for a change. If you're at all interested in the last 8 years of my blogging history, ask me for the link and I'll gladly provide it.
I was just taking a shower and thinking about why it is that I like to blog - and part of me thought that it's because I can come on here and talk about my day, and express my point of view and have this escapist fantasy. But in reality I think I come on here to connect, because I don't necessarily re-read what I write, but I like seeing if people comment on what I write, and I think that's the best part. Maybe it's a bit narcissistic to come on here and think people are so excited to comment, but I guess there are worse things that I could be doing, like smoking crack.
As many of you probably know, I'm looking for a new job / career path, but I haven't figured out how to start yet because it's the one thing I don't know about. Someone told me once that I have insanely strong opinions on things that don't matter in the slightest, like ice cream flavors with random chunks, of film majors - but I don't have opinions on the things that matter, like oh I don't know, knowing what I want to do with my life. I didn't know in college and I guess I thought I could skate on through but... not this time. So here I am not knowing what I want to do, and the last interview I had scheduled was cancelled on the day I totaled my car. But that's another story.
Anyway the other day I decided to get in my closet and take a look at my interview suit, only I couldn't find the pants. Then I remembered the black pants I was looking for in December. I was raiding my closet looking for black party pants - very different than interview pants. And I found my interview pants and decided to donate them to charity because they didn't have the ass-defining qualities I was looking for at the time. So, here I am with half an interview suit, and I feel like a fool because it's like my ultimate lack of career direction decided to physically manifest itself into half a suit. Things could be worse, I know, but... I can't go to an interview with no pants on. And if I can, it's definitely not the type of job I want.
LOL I love that you changed over to Blogger! Secondly I think that the fact that you got rid of your interview pants for "lack of ass defining" is completely reasonable. :)
ReplyDeleteholy fuck you're blogging on blogger! YAY!!! this is super exciting. okay, i'm going to actually read your post now. LOL
ReplyDeletedude.. i think that you shouldn't sell yourself short. a job where you don't have to wear pants might be super fulfilling. and life changing. and make you rich.
ReplyDeletejust think about it. :)
in all honesty.. when it comes to what you want to do in life- i think it's constantly changing. i mean, i think that we as people are always growing, learning, going through shit that changes us, etc... that what sounded good when we were 20, doesn't sound so good anymore when we're 25.. just don't beat yourself up. not everyone has THAT ONE THING that they want to do, or know they were born to do. ya know? i think the people who know what they want are the lucky ones. and the rarer ones. most people are just doing something to get by, not because they love it.