The other day at lunch, I said that I didn't really know the meaning of irony. I don't throw the word around a lot, because I don't know what it means. I don't go "oh my god that's SO ironic" at all. It makes me think of Alanis, and then I heard that her song gives the word the completely wrong meaning. "Her song is more like a series of unfortunate events that have nothing to do with irony," someone said. "Irony would be like this band playing a really loud punk song." I asked why. "Because it's like, so peaceful". So, does irony mean the opposite? I'm still sort of lost.
But... it's sort of similar with jealousy. I think we get jealous because someone has something that we want. But I never really subscribed to the "green with envy" theory because in my life, jealousy has usually spurred me to action, whereas green with envy seems to imply some sort of vegetative state of being, almost like a stasis. And if an emotion spurs me to action, it can't be that bad right?
Lately my jealousy has been regarding other peoples' good news. And it's not so much like, oh I'm angry I'm so jealous - it's been much more pathetic, like a 3 year old bouncing up and down saying "me too me too me too". I just want some good news too - really anything. This has been one of the least enjoyable years of my life, ranging from knowing for a YEAR that I'm going to lose my job, to slowly caring less, to totaling my car, etc. I just want some good news. Like, a giant heaping dose of it.
Me too, me too..... me too.
i don't think that's jealousy. hell, it's probably not even envy. cause you aren't begrudging people their happy news- you just want some too. you're um.. like in line, waiting for your turn. i don't know- it's good that your jealousy spurs you into action, cause when i'm jealous, i just turn into a raging bitch who can't be reasoned with. :)
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